30 Day Challenge 6,7,8,9,10.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
sounds trivial but i hope i never have to leave my home for work. i like working from home, and would like to have more hours and better pay. for those who have been following me for some time, know that i get very sick from allergic reactions to scent. leaving the home is a big panic for me (i don't mean taking the dog for a walk--i mean heading out where other people are--like stores and such).  every single job i have held in the last 10 yrs i have gotten sick from someone elses' negligence in office policies. so then i am the one who is penalized because not only am i ill, but i lose time at said job (and because i have been very defensive about it in the past--i get blacklisted). 

i know this is a short one. so i will go onto #7 
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
bestus. she has been such a wonderful part of my life. we just always got along. from the time we met in that FAN chat all those years ago. you know how people just seem to click? we did. we laugh every day, we've been there for one another when things were dark, and we have not always had an easy time. yes, bestus, i'm glad you are in my life, my inner circle. thank you. 

hmmm, on a roll, lets hit #8 
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. 
when i first got married all seemed fine. but as time went on, things changed. the things that were once admired as strengths became sources of threat and anxiety for the now XH. i have learned over the years that he was a truly angry person, for many reasons, and alot of that anger wound up directed at me. if he had a bad day at work, if supper wasn't ready when he thought it ought  to be, if his parents had a bad day, everything seemed to end up as my fault. at first, i would not take the mental abuse (i was stronger then) but as the years wore on, i began to get worn down. he did treat me badly a lot of the time.  it took me a long time after i left to really realize (see) the pattern, and well, now after all these years, it is done and over with because i am happy and he no longer has power over me. can i hear an AMEN on that?  

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
when i lived in ottawa, there was a herd of kids who always seemed to play well together. L was in this group. she was a couple of years older than i. we had some great times the last 2 yrs i lived there. summers were spent biking with the 'herd', winters we would all go to the 'sliding hill'. and when i moved away, we kept in touch. once every few months we would phone each other, and when she went to university, we still wrote back and forth. then it seemed that she grew away. the letters, they stopped coming, the phone calls stopped.  the summer i was 17 was the last time i saw her, and the 'herd'.   over the years i wondered what ever happened? for a long time i asked myself what did i do? 
with the coming of facebook, i began a search. i found her younger brother, S, and connected with him. and naturally i asked him more than once to pass my email address to L so that we could hook up and catch up after some 30 yrs.  eventually, S told me that L was glad to hear i was alive and well, but that she did not wish to reconnect with me. WTF does that mean?  for a while i was hurt about that, because i then began to wonder what i had done to have that kind of response--especially since we were such good friends back in the day.  S said that L was busy, work, life, kids, and well, that was that. 
so WHTVR i think to myself. her loss. i just thought it would be nice to see how things are going in her world now. she doesn't care to share, so ok. her loss.  

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
i do not need to let go of anyone in my life now, but the wish i didn't know part.....there are more than one. all i am going to say on this is hindsight is 20/20, and if i knew then what i know now, things might well have turned out different on a lot of levels of my life.  my motto is that which doesn't KILL you makes you stronger.......so i guess i am stronger now than ever.

ok that is enough for today. Make today GREAT~ poet.